Oh well, let me tell you, i have been exactly where you are, with the exact same thoughts and fears (And i know a lot of anxious people feel/ felt the same at some point). Hell i am still there sometimes and its been 5 years.
From what i experienced, let me tell you what i think is going on in our minds. Anxiety is a normal emotion but thats out of balance to us, we will experience fear when we KNOW we have nothing to be afraid of. So our logical analysis (And I think its proves we are actually very sane) of us feeling fear when there is nothing to be afraid of, is that somehow we must have gone crazy; in our heads, the logical pattern is this: I feel fear + I KNOW there is nothing to be afraid of = I must have gone crazy, or be psychotic! So we start reading articles on psychotic disorders to find relief but instead, we feed our fear and end up imagining we have every symptoms. So a few things this tells us:
- We understand that our anxious response to daily tasks are irrational, which makes us very sane. A schizophrenic person (I know one, and btw Schizophrenia is not as crippling as we think, that person works and is fully functional when on the right medication) in the middle of a crisis will, on the contrary, think that they are perfectly normal and that what they feel is appropriate giving the situation.
- Thinking that we are crazy is `normal` because with anxiety, we don`t understand our `out of proportion` feelings anymore, thus they make us feel weird and not in our normal state of mind, so `psychosis`seems like the only explanation possible.
But let me tell you, thinking this makes you very sane, and like it did for me, the more you learn about anxiety and its effects, the less you will fear psychosis. But please, please, dont feed your fear and stay out of Schizophrenia symptoms article because it makes the matter worse, i wished i stopped after a year
because i dug my own grave doing that!
A good book i would suggest is the well known Hope and Help for your nerves by Claire Weekes, it explains very well the mechanisms of anxiety and how it affects us, basically saved my life. I hope all of this makes sense, english is not my first language!
Ps: other advice: go out, change your mind and you`ll see, these moments when you`re not focusing on your symptoms you`ll feel `normal` again!