I'm sorry you are going through such a rough time right now, Joc. I know things seem bad right now but like most things, this too shall pass. Is there any chance of reconciliation? I know you said you're pretty sure it ended, but sometimes in the heat of the moment, people say things they really don't mean or want. I hope it all works out for you and in the meantime, feel free to vent here and we are here to support you.
I am going to move this thread to "relationship issues"