Hello, I am new here
I am 30 year old male. Dealing with health anxiety on and off for many years. Now having symptoms so real. Fighting the thougt of MS but my sinister side always takes control unless I take anti depressant. I am happily married with children and no specific worries other than my health. I am in good shape and excersize regularly. I get chest pain and stomach ache from time to time that doesn't worry me but any signs pointing to nerves and muscles wake up that old MS-ghost.
I have read posts on this site couple of times. I have had health anxiety episodes in the past and I am well aware of that. I had my first on my first year in medical school. I had blood with feces so I was convinced for 2-3 weeks I had colon cancer, nothing else came to mind, this turned out to be small ulcer. 3 years later during a hard time in my life I had a panick attack as I thougt I was having a heart attack. Testicular cancer and lymphoma are also on my list in the past.
8 years ago I got tingling in my thighs and later my rigt foot was a bit weird. I was at that time studying neurology. I instantly diagnosed first symptoms of MS. As I only knew the worst case of MS, I shourtly came extremly anxious and depressed. I spoke with a neurologist who diagnosed anxiety, of course. With zoloft these symptoms faded away. I have had this MS thinking in the back of my mind ever since. 1 1/2 year ago during a stressful time in my life these symtpoms came back. The feeling in my leg was a slight different and I of coursed diagnosed my second relapse of MS, symtoms in leg must be spasticity. I examined myself every day. I started reading about MS symtoms from chat rooms and my anxiety level went thru the roof. I spoke with the same neurologist about this. Anxiety and somatic symtoms to stress he said. Zoloft again and symtoms fade away. Now these symtoms are coming back. Started after 4 week of feeling a bit depressed and I start thinking MS of course. I only read this forum as I am trying to convince myself that this is anxiety and/or depression. Started taking zoloft again an hope this will go away.
I know this could well be the starting symptoms of MS, as can any weird body sensation. I dont have signs of neurological damage so I dont have MS and would never get that diagnosis even though MRI would show white spot or whatever. I do know that I have a history of being dramatic over symtoms and hypochondria, and SSRI have always helped my.