Hey there girlie,
I know times are tough, but I want you to know that I'm here to give you some support. Sometimes nothing works better than talking someone, especially when the mind is being infatuated with these sometimes horrifying thoughts and worry. I'm a huge worrier, but I'm getting better. I'm taking Zoloft and my anxiety has spiked through the roof, so I kind of get an idea of those with heightened anxiety feel like. To this day I'll never underestimate it.
There is nothing wrong with worrying but one should never let it take over your life. You are a successful mom of two children, and it sounds like you've been struggling with anxiety for quite a while. It never goes away, so there is no sense in throwing a penny in a fountain and wishing you'll wake up without it. It's a long process that takes a lot of commitment. success in understanding your situation and learning to control your thoughts and your personal struggles all lie on a foundation of how badly you want to overcome your anxiety. It will always be there and you must accept that, but how you're willing to manage it is all in your hands.
Health worries must be extremely scary, I have had a few every once in a while but if push comes to shove you seek professional help from someone that you trust and you put faith in that. One can't simply diagnose themselves on every bad disease or illness.... or we'd all be a wreck. Beat yourself over your head with worry and it's going to give you a headache.
From the sounds of it maybe you should consult with your doctor about your Celexa, keeping in good contact with him/her is the only way that you know that what you're taking to treat your anxiety is actually helping and not failing you. Nobody likes to waste money and nobody likes to feel agony, You've got to do what's best for you. If you let Anxiety overcome you, it will snowball you... I promise you that with all of my heart.
Don't worry about death. I was a big death worrier... But everybody has their time... It's irrelevant. so there is no sense spending such a wonderful life worrying about where life takes us. Whether it be tomorrow or 100 years in your sleep, you do not know. It's unavoidable and that's okay. I don't mean to trigger you if I do, but I just want you to know that you must look past it... there is just too many variables. you do far too much damage worrying about things you shouldn't worry about that you would do believing that everything is okay, and seeking help when something isn't right.
You sound like a great individual and you must do what's best for you. chest pains and dizziness as well as migraines and visual disturbances are very common with Anxiety and if you want answers, speak with your doctor... who knows, maybe your need to switch your Celexa or fluxuate the doseage.
Just relax and enjoy the good things in life. there's ALWAYS something out there that will put a smile on your face.
Best wishes to you.