As some of you may know, I've had a massive fear and anxiety about hiv due to a kiss with a stranger. I've been convinced he's somehow managed to get blood into a small cut in my lips (I tend to bite them). I have no idea of this guys status, but have no reason to suspect he was hiv positive and know how unlikely it is that it could be transferred that way anyway.
I developed an ulcer and mild sore throat on Thursday (they're both healing up and almost away) and then convinced myself that it was seroconversion. It had been 4 weeks since the kiss, so I decided after reading that the modern 4th gen tests are almost 100% accurate after 4 weeks, to go get tested.
I went this morning and the nurse talked me through how unlikely it was but that she was happy to take the blood and help me get over this. She also referred me to a counsellor and they were wonderful. I've been referred to Cognitive Behavioural Therapy so hopefully will start some sessions with them soon and begin to tackle this.
In the meantime, I have a few days to wait for these results. I'm freaking out slightly as I know this is it. This is everything I've been panicking about for 4 weeks. I'm struggling to keep calm here at work!
Anyone had similar waiting periods? How did you cope?