How do I stop being anxious and scared that I am going to die of a brain tumour or find out I have something seriously wrong with my head???
I was ok when I woke up and now thanks to a moment of feeling like I'm on a boat and feeling sick I am back being scared again!!!!!!
I have had head pain since end of august last year, it started with a strong stabbing pain that made me feel dizzy and sick or was that the anxiety reaction to it - who knows! Anyway I went into a pit of despair and was convinced it was a brain tumour and I was dieing! I went to doctors that afternoon and was told it was muscle tension and anxiety and it would be fine, now I am still getting them. Over these many months I have change my jobs, so working full time, my husband has got a job after being out of work for 6 months and my son is now thankfully settled in secondary school - so I should be happy and enjoying life! But I'm not, I'm convinced that I have something wrong with my brain, because over these many months I have experienced stabbing pains in my head, rush feelings of something in my head, head aches all over and in the same place, dizziness with the rush feelings, dizziness on their own, nausea, feeling like I'm on a boat, feeling panicky and like I'm going to pass out and generally feeling really rubbish and scared.
I am now in my 4th week of beta blockers 1 a day and starting CBT next week, but I still think the doctors are saying it is anxiety because of my personality and waiting to see if anything else happens!!!!
What do I do? Do I push for MRI? I want to feel happier or will it scare me more? I hate not knowing and hate feeling scared that I am going to collapse at home with my 11 and 8 year old being there.
How comes some days I wake up like today, no beginnings of any head pain and then I start thinking about stuff and then feel sick etc etc.
Is something brewing - is it anxiety?? What do I do???