I know the subject title can take us just about anywhereany direction possible lol. The past couple of weeks i have made some pretty big changes in my life trying to find the man i once was, ive been feeling pretty good for the most part, i still have my moments, they just seemed to have become less lately... so i thought. I decided to venture to walmart today to get some stuff for my boat just a few things short quick and simple. As soon as i walked in i felt the tension building up, i see everyone, feel eyes looking at me, i feel crowded. Thats normal for me, so i keep walking on finding my way through the isles, avoiding the main walkways where you always get cutoff or brushef against. I found a couple of the things i was searching for fairly quickly and made my way back up front to cashout. This is where it got different, i got in line as usual, standing there i literally started sweating, i could feel my forehead starting to bead, heat seemed to come in waves, i could feel my heart beating. I tell myself to relax and it just doesnt work. I walked out. Just left. Yesterday a friend picked me up to do some car shopping, i found a truck bought it and was happy and feeling good, we went to his house afterward to hang out and drink a beer and it was good. An hour goes by i dont start feeling anxious, i start feeling quite sad, when there wasnt anything to be sad about. I went out on his back porch and sat by myself. Eventually he came out and asked if i wanted to leave and i said yes. Quite rude of me i know, i cant help it. I have such high highs and such low lows, how do you find the happy medium? How can you find your comfort zone when nothing makes sense? Where do you turn when noone gets it?