I came across this forum and I don't see why I haven't thought about becoming apart of one sooner.
I have been dealing with anxiety for a long time, which I hadn't realized until I thought about it recently. I remember running to my mom's room at 13 years old because I was so convinced that someone was going to break through my bedroom window and attack me, for utterly no reason at all. Since high school, it seems like my thoughts have completely taken over to the point where I am constantly worrying about everything. Even when there isn't anything wrong, I find something to worry about, and makes me more stressed because this distracts me from concentrating on my college workload. It is a continuing cycle that I cannot stop.
But I have always thought that it would be good for me to have a place to discuss my thoughts/worries as they happen. I was in therapy for about 5 months a while back, but since starting at college, I have been scared to go back, because I feel like I cannot accurately convey how I really feel to my therapist. When I go to therapy, I usually don't feel the intense emotions I feel outside of therapy, so it is hard for me to explain the emotions. This will often paint an inaccurate picture for the therapist, so it is harder for them to give me proper treatment.
I am convinced that I have GAD. And I know that I need treatment ASAP, so this can stop interfering with my life. Just yesterday I put myself in a depressed state because of my anxiety and negative thoughts, which was horrible because I was out celebrating Valentine's Day with my boyfriend, who I am crazy about. I know it hurts him to see me sad so often, and I don't want my anxiety to get in the way of our relationship since we're so happy with each other. This is just one of the many examples of how GAD is affecting me.
Anyway, I want to be apart of this forum so that I can have some support. It would really help me find the courage to seek therapy again, and stay committed to it so I can fight this problem once and for all. I know there a lot people that can help me here, I would greatly appreciate some encouragement from people who are going through the same thing.