I am new to the boards and newly diagnosed with GAD
I am 36 and I am pretty sure ive had GAD all my life but this is my first diagnosis. It started when I was very young and had very high expectations in High School and college. I am just not sure how severe I have it.
I recently had a daughter and my Anxiety during my wife's pregnancy was on and off.. Usually centered around appointments and tests. But my wife says my anxiety and worry goes far beyond that. She says I obsess and worry about everything, and its exhausting.
The first week my daughter was here I felt doom and gloom, like my life is over and I will never get free time again, and as the weeks go on (She's 6 weeks now) its gotten better, but I still have nausea and can't sleep very well with constant thoughts of worry. My wife wants to have another one very soon but I am so overcome with anxiety over the pregnancy and having 2 at once I can barely function. Once my wife said she wanted another I went into a complete anxiety attack over the prospect of it.. And over the last 3 days I have had barely any food due to nausea, and just restless sleep. I also just feel doom and gloom constantly and its making me have a bad attitude.
My PCP gave me Zoloft and told me to start on 25mg for 2 weeks then go to 50mg ongoing. I am concerned about taking any drugs and in the past I just dealt with the problems. So every day I see the pill bottle sitting there and don't take it due to the fear of bad side effects, but at this point I'm thinking it couldn't get much worse! I have read a billion stories about this stuff, and I think my anxiety is eating me alive about taking it...
I am thinking of trying it starting on Friday and see if it will make my life improve, I feel like I just never will get out of this rut. I want to have more kids but i'm so overcome with worries I just dont know how to function.
Take the damn pills and shut up? Don't take the pill? So lost...