So, I haven't been posting on here lately because I was 10000000000% CONVINVED that I had cancer. I had a pretty big lymph node under my arm. It was hard and barely mobile. Dr. Google told me that it was cancer.
I went into a terrible downward spiral. The had to wait to get a biopsy. So, while I waited, totally convinced that the cancer was eating me alive because everything was taking so long, I ended up in the ER, went on a non-stop googling rampage, barely ate, and barely functioned. Each morning I woke up in a panic. I pictured my life undergoing treatments and being unable to care for my children. This consumed me. On Monday morning I had my biopsy. Then the waiting for results...more time to worry, google, convince myself that this is it, I am going to die.
This morning I got my results back. Totally benign. I was, and still am, completely shocked. I wasted SO much time worrying and crying. I am so insanely happy and relieved right now.
So, the lesson. Not EVERY hard, enlarged, and immobile lymph node is malignant. I'm not saying that it isn't something that shouldn't be checked out. Dr. Google isn't always right, though.