Just posting to vent more than anything - having a tough time with anxiety over the last couple of weeks or so (recently posted worrying that I had a blood clot!).
It feels like it is just getting worse and out of control, I cried for 10 minutes at work today after spending 10 minutes in the bathroom trying to look at my legs to see if one calf was bigger than the other (have been having slight/on off cramps in both legs but mostly left). It is just overwhelming.
I have looked up so many posts where people have also worried about blood clots, and the main response has been that they would def know if they had one - I have no redness, obvious swelling, can walk, the cramps/aches come and go and are not constant. In fact even tonight while I was twisting around in the bath to try and compare my legs, I realised the irony - they weren't even remotely hurting, I was just still desperately looking for something.
Under a lot of stress at the moment, as broke up with my boyfriend a couple of weeks ago, and been pretty down/stressed at work too. My head knows this is anxiety but there is always that awful little voice that says "yes, but you could still have something wrong with you."
I have made an appointment with my GP for Monday (as I couldn't bear worrying about it anymore at work) and even though am always terrified to go (in case it really is what I'm worried about) I also think it could be helpful if I mention my anxiety issues, and see if they have any suggestions.
So yeah,just having a really really hard time with it today, and still scared out of my brain about blood clots even though right now I have no pain,but still keep checking my legs constantly.
So tired of this