Hi everyone. Firstly sorry if I ramble on but I don't have anybody who really understands what I'm going through in my 'real life' so I just need to get everything out on here. As crazy as it seems in the 21st century I honestly had no idea there were other people like me until I found this site today so Im actually writing this with tears (of relief) streaming down my face as I type.
Okey, so, Im a 26 year old female originally from UK. I have had panic attacks and health anxiety for as long as I can remember. its been fairly mild, focusing on my heart and sudden death, but Ive usually been able to rationalize myself out of it... Usually.... Ive rushed to the emergency room only twice in the last year thinking I was having a heart attack.
BUT! after a recent experience it has now gone into overdrive and is ruining my life. I cant eat, sleep, go to work or do anything thats not googling my symptoms. My new fear is Rabies.
I wont go into too much detail, but I was bitten by a dog (neighbours pet) a month ago, recieved post exposure treatment, and basically the dog is fully vaccinated, still alive well after the allocated quarantine period and 100% does not have rabies. Therefore I 100% do not have rabies. From the dog that bit me. However my anxiety is making me believe that I was mistaken and it was another dog that bit me and Im in my final week of life after being infected with the fatal disease.
Im not looking for advice on whether I could have rabies. I have spoken to many people including neighbours who saw the dog and professionals at my local Rabies centre about this. (I live in Turkey, where Rabies is still a problem so we have special hospitals just for this) Although if anybody else has had the same anxiety it would be great to hear from you.
Im looking for advice on some symptoms Im experiencing that are convincing me I have the disease even though Im logically pretty sure I dont and whether my actual anxiety could be causing them. When Ive read online what symptoms to look out for in Rabies, I suddenly develop them.
Sore throat - more just a tight feeling and difficulty swallowing
Not eaten in 2 days
Lower back pain
Pain in leg near bite - this one is really getting me. I can feel a physical muscle ache near but not on the bite. Online Ive seen the pain of rabies is a sharp, burning on the site itself so Im surprised my anxiety hasnt given me the 'right' pain which is making me paranoid that its not my anxiety doing this.
Dry mouth - again a confusing one as rabies would have the opposite effect
Thanks in advance for any support and insight any of you can offer me