Where do i begin? I am a 19 year old from New Jersey, and a college student. I am here today because I have been battling health anxiety for almost a year now. It started after the death of my girlfriend's mom who had numerous heath problems. She passed far too young, and it was a very difficult time for my girlfriend. She is doing good now thankfully. The time of her mother's passing was a day before my highs school graduation which added to the extreme stress that i felt during this time. In addition, i was sick with an ear infection and sinus problem. Fast forward 2 weeks later, i still was not feeling well. I kept waking up with a soar throat and congestion. This lead to the beginning of my health anxiety. I do not take well to feeling unwell. I Think its largely because i'm a control freak and cant handle losing control of my body. I began to see a ear nose and throat doctor, who recommended I see an allergist to be tested for allergies. I did not have a single one. This was obviously frustrating as i had now been feeling unwell for 3 months. My ENT doctor now thinks it is reflux which is causing the symptoms. I have been trying different medications, and am in the process of trying a different dosage of one i have been taking. No luck still.
Time to backtrack a little. During the summer months following graduation, I began to have panic attacks. I went to the ER for the first one because i had never felt anything like it before. I had about 3 more and began to see a psychiatrist. Ever since i have been able to stop the panic attacks, but the anxiety still lingers. I am learning to live with it, but it is hard. I wake up everyday feeling awful. This is partly due to my mysterious sinus problem and partly due to the anxiety i have over my health. I attribute the feelings of fatigue, pain, heart palpitations, and anything else as something that is seriously wrong with me. I have had blood tests and everything checks out, but i cant convince myself that i am completely okay simply because i feel so bad everyday. I hope that i can find people with similar issues on here that can help me work through my daily anxiety. I hope one day that i will feel normal again. Thanks for reading. It feels good to get some of this off my chest. I could go into so much more detail but it would take hours.