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Ok so here is my problem, hopefully you can offer some insight. As few years ago I experienced my first anxiety attack and things have gone downhill since then, but I am happy to say the anxiety is nowhere near what it was. But I can't stop thinking about dying and leaving my kids without a father. I think about death several times a day and it has consumed my life to a degree. This morning my best friend of many years called and the first thing out of his mouth was "how's your health"? I replied "good I think". Then he said he had a dream last night that he and I were at a coat rack picking out a coat for me because I was dying, but didn't know it. In his dream the rack was spinning and stopped on a leather coat with holes in the sleeve and I said that is your coat. Then the rack stopped on a tan colored coat for me. By this point my mind is going crazy worrying about dying. Then I explained to him that three weeks ago I had a dream he had died in a car accident which I thought the two dreams were weird to say the least, but now the thought of death has consumed my day.I often worry about pains and aches (I'm 39) and I instantly wonder is it my heart, am I going to die. I have been to the my PCP and cardiologist (I see the cardiologist because of family history of early heart problems) and have had test after test. They always come back normal and my cardiologist said my heart was strong. All of my blood work is fine and I had a complete physical a few months ago which was also normal. I always worry that there is an underlying illness that they haven't found yet and to be frank, it scares the hell out me. Well I appreciate you taking a moment to read my post.