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Fear of anxiety, ocd, hypochondria
« on: February 05, 2014, 10:01:49 PM »
Hi Everyone,

I have never signed up to any forum before. I just feel it is time to share my story and get to hear other ppl's experience.

For me it started 2 yrs ago with severe chest pain. I went to various gp's and heart specialists.
All my tests came back normal. At that point in time my stress levels were so high and i just cracked. For another year i couldn't accept i was fine. I got checked for glaucoma, blood pressure and diabetes. I thought i was absolutely going to die with all this chest pain. It was a living hell. I lived everyday with repeated anxiety attacks, sweating, palpitations and hot flashes. The fear of these symptoms kept me constantly analysing my mental and physical state.

With a lot of courage i overcame all the fear of dying. Around 10 months ago i got so fed up of anxiety and fear that i went into overdrive. I scanned my mind 24/7 for anything that could create anxiety. This compounded my fears and it was like i was never in the present moment. Everyday i read up giving the fight, but i can't seem to. In a sense i create my fears and fight them.

I know if i didn't scan the thoughts all day, this would probably stop. The extreme frustration and discomfort is driving me to eliminate anxiety. This is obviously not working. Whether i am at work, home or elsewhere i am picking up things from around me and creating my own anxiety. I strongly believe this is because of underlying fear of anxiety itself. I haven't ever taken medications. Now i fear going crazy or get diagnosed with schizophrenia as i am always thinking. The cycle just won't end. In addition a tired mind and body is firing away all the typical symptoms.

Please HELP HELP HELP.
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Re: Fear of anxiety, ocd, hypochondria
« Reply #1 on: February 06, 2014, 02:32:58 AM »
It sounds like you are dealing with a lot of issues here.  It is very common for those of us with anxiety to be hyper vigilant about every little sensation or pain in our body and to fixate on certain thoughts.  Those thoughts and symptoms in the body turn to fear very quickly. 

The fact that you have been checked out and everything came back normal should be of some comfort to you.  The main thing here is to trust the doctors and start accepting that you are ok.  Also accept that what you are dealing with is anxiety and nothing more harmful.  The thing with anxiety is that the more we fight the thoughts, fears, and physical sensations the stronger they become.  So I have found that the key is to not fight the anxiety.  Accept it for what it is and push forward and face those situations or thoughts that you find the hardest.  By pushing forward, we prove to ourselves just how strong we are and that ultimately we are stronger than the fears and the anxiety.  Hope this helps.
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Re: Fear of anxiety, ocd, hypochondria
« Reply #2 on: February 06, 2014, 04:14:53 PM »
I also am very in tune with any little sensation. I have had a full heart workup, stress test, ekg's, echo- all normal except for some extra heart beats. I also have a hiatal hernia which they say can mimic feelings of a heart attack.

Someone told me a friend had died 2 days after finding out he had cancer. Only symptoms were back pain and a mole- of course right away I think I've had back pain and what if my moles are cancerous?

Its terrible to have these feelings
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Re: Fear of anxiety, ocd, hypochondria
« Reply #3 on: February 08, 2014, 12:03:59 AM »
Please someone share your experience with me.

I go anywhere and my mind is just scanning for anything at all. Thoughts seem to come from anywhere and with such surprise and force that you are forced to notice and analyse. That is keeping me in this vicious cycle. I know it is the hypervigilance that is causing this but if i donít it feels like i may lose control or end up going insane.

Would really appreciate if people can share their experience. I donít want to go insane and end up with a permanent mental disorder.
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