I have never signed up to any forum before. I just feel it is time to share my story and get to hear other ppl's experience.
For me it started 2 yrs ago with severe chest pain. I went to various gp's and heart specialists.
All my tests came back normal. At that point in time my stress levels were so high and i just cracked. For another year i couldn't accept i was fine. I got checked for glaucoma, blood pressure and diabetes. I thought i was absolutely going to die with all this chest pain. It was a living hell. I lived everyday with repeated anxiety attacks, sweating, palpitations and hot flashes. The fear of these symptoms kept me constantly analysing my mental and physical state.
With a lot of courage i overcame all the fear of dying. Around 10 months ago i got so fed up of anxiety and fear that i went into overdrive. I scanned my mind 24/7 for anything that could create anxiety. This compounded my fears and it was like i was never in the present moment. Everyday i read up giving the fight, but i can't seem to. In a sense i create my fears and fight them.
I know if i didn't scan the thoughts all day, this would probably stop. The extreme frustration and discomfort is driving me to eliminate anxiety. This is obviously not working. Whether i am at work, home or elsewhere i am picking up things from around me and creating my own anxiety. I strongly believe this is because of underlying fear of anxiety itself. I haven't ever taken medications. Now i fear going crazy or get diagnosed with schizophrenia as i am always thinking. The cycle just won't end. In addition a tired mind and body is firing away all the typical symptoms.
Please HELP HELP HELP.