Constant Worry about this. Not that I help it. 44/f smoker since about 21. Just started Chantix today and am determined to be quit this time. It really does work. I only smoke about 1/2 a pack a day. Somedays a pack in the past. Ok so I work in the health field. So not good. We saw a patient who had oral cancer and for the hell of it about a year ago I felt around my mandible with my tongue. Lo and behold there IS A LUMP. Feels soft to the touch and I can move it by pulling the skin away from the jaw in the floor of the mouth. Flashlights, etc, yes. Anyway, I have a dentist and a specialist look at it. Both of them say it doesnt look ominous normal tissue. Not good enough of course. I schedule with an oral surgeon and he cant even see what the hell I am pointing at does an oral cancer screening and looks looks and looks. Nada. Fast forward a year and I have the dentist look again. Nothing. Of COURSE not good enough so I schedule again to see the Oral Surgeon who just raises his eyebrows at me when he walks in the room. Nuff said. Looks again and nothing. NOW? I think I should see an ENT I have one who I trust. I am sooooo scared of oral cancer and cant believe I smoked so many years with this underlying fear. Not to mention all the hype lately about HPV which at some point in our lives over 80% of us have contracted. (That does disappear with the immune system) but can rear its ugly head as oral cancer as in the case of Michael Douglas and COUNTLESS others. My fear is chemo and radiation and hair loss and dying and disfigurement. Some days this is so hard for me to handle and I have ruined so many holidays and enjoyable things for myself because all I can think about is that I am ill. Looking at me I am the picture of health you would never even know I had such a bad habit. I have been a bodybuilder for years and some days I cant even bring myself to do that. Why? Cause Ill be dead in a year so why put forth the effort. Unbelievable huh? Made me feel better to type it out though.