Hi all, I've posted before but I'm so exhausted from worry that I just need some help calming down..
I'm 45 and my extreme fear of Drs and tests has kept me from having a Pap smear for the past 7 years. I've been having some symptoms of Perimenopause so I sucked it up and went to a Gyn where she did hormone blood work and a pap. I received the bloodwork results which showed that I am definitely in the change of life but I have yet to get my pap results.. It will be 11 days tomorrow and I keep telling myself that if something wacky showed up I would have known by now but we had almost 10" of snow last week which pretty much closed down the state for a couple of days. I am expecting to know something by tomorrow but I am paralyzed with fear.. I WANT to know so that I can get back to my life.. I'm not eating, barely working and sleeping a lot.
I'm not really having any concerning symptoms.. I am simply terrified that I haven't been checked in so long that SOMETHING must be wrong and I've waited until its too late. It doesn't help that the Dr wasn't very reassuring when I asked if everything looked ok.. She just said "I think soo". She did mention that I have a Nabothian cyst in my cervix and that I had a "pinhole" opening probably from never having a vaginal birth. The only thing I am clinging to right now is when I told her I was worried about cervical C, she said that someone with that usually has urine containing cells and that it normally smells really bad but mine was perfect but I've never heard this symptom before..
I'm just so freaked out and feel like I'm about to get horrible news.. Can anyone relate? I I had something crazy going on wouldn't there be more signs and symptoms? Ugh.. I just want my life back :-((