So last night I went to bed, and just when I was starting to fall asleep there goes a panic attack. But it was kind of unusual. You know how when you go to bed and start falling asleep your thoughts kind of get more abstract and disconnected? Well that happened like usual but this time I felt like I've lost touch with reality which led me to a full panic mode. I got up and tried to occupy myself, and I managed to calm a little, focus on "reality", but every time I went back to bed and closed my eyes it would be chaos all over again. I didn't have a fear so much of dying, more a terrible fear of going insane. In the end I kind of dropped to sleep since it was around 6 in the morning (the attack lasted for hours).
My mind still feels hazy and my hands are trembling even tho I am calm. I still have a feeling like I need to focus on reality not to lose it.
(maybe also worth mentioning I've started with my first medication 3 days ago; prozac)