As you know, if you have been reading my posts, I have been going through liver testing. Right now my tests as leading the doctor to believe I have Primary Biliary Cirrhosis. Please don't google, as you will be scared and having it. Basically its an incurable, though slow acting, liver disease that as a rule reacts well to meds and can have a slow or fast process.
My liver levels (ALP and GGT) are crazy high and I have some minor symptoms so far. The levels are also indicative of liver cancer and PSC, (a worse version of PBC)
The thing is, after all the worrying I've done over my life, the wasting of precious time and energy, I may have an incurable disease, but I wasted so many years worrying about stuff that never happened. I look back at all the vacations I messed up, time with family I messed up because I was busy googling on my phone or just worrying about things that didn't happen.
I hate to say this, but it was my doggedness may have led to my diagnosis finally. My doctor has been brushing my liver enzymes under the rug for over 2 years, and now they realize that this may be serious. That doesn't mean that is what is happening to you. My ALP levels were over 3 times normal and now over 4 times normal and my GGT over 16 times normal. So don't read into this that all doctors are wrong. For the most part, they have been right when I was obsessing over things to test then reassure me that nothing is wrong.
The moral of the story is, don't waste time worrying about what "if". I could now worry and obsess that my possible PBC is not PBC at all but PSC, which is more likely fatal sooner than PBC. I was googling earlier and thought, what the hell am I doing?
Please read this in the spirit intended. I know that if you are in the middle of an episode it may go in one ear and out the other, but listen to me! Go live your life and don't worry about things that probably won't happen. In my case, it appears something is going to happen, but that doesn't change the fact that the long list of things I worried about over my life NEVER happened.