Its been great for the past month, I've found new hobby that could make my mind busy thinking of it. Also its makes me feel calm every time I'm doing it. Fishing, it could help me keeping my anxiety on manageable level. I never thought that such activity demand a high level of concentration and by doing so it keeps me focus on the sign when the fish eat the bait, so it really help me to clear my thought.
But there is one problem. I have a friend and her husband died because of tongue cancer and I became afraid of tongue cancer. Before her husband died, my friend told me that her husband got tongue cancer because of a fish spine stuck on his tongue when he eat a fish. That was the first time I ever heard about tongue cancer.
Now every time I eat fish, I got scared especially freshwater fish because it has a lot of fish spines. I still manage to eat fish but I'm on high level of stress every time I put it on my mouth and chewing it, afraid that the spines will stuck on my tongue and it will become cancer. I already ask my dentist about it and she said that it's not possible, but when I told the story to my doctor he said it is possible but very rare. But still I can't drive away the thought about tongue cancer caused by fish spine. It's been like this for more than a year, it never bother me before but when I found out that fishing can help my anxiety, this fish spine become a problem every time I eat my catch. The easy way is running away, just don't eat it but it's such a waste of money when you catch a lot of fish but you can not eat it. Beside fish is really healthy food for my age (I'm 38), and running away is not going to solve the problem.