I am really lost at the moment.My job has changed and i feel that nobody cares.
I have been working in France in the summer and uk in the winter.Both places accommodation was provided .
I am now going to be based in uk but have to find my own place to stay.It scares me as i have never done this and it is so expensive everywhere.I am sure that this has brought my anxiety back.
I now feel so anxious that i cant cope with sorting this out and just want to get away.
I went home to my parents in Scotland for the holidays and could not stop worrying.
My girlfriend lives in Wales and i felt better when i went to see her last weekend.
As soon as i got back it started again. I have had so many of the usual symtoms .stomach ,dizzy ,not sleeping all night.
The doctor told me my blood pressure was high which made me more worried 159/94 .
She put me on citaplopram and told me to come back in 3 weeks. I took one and felt so bad next day that i stopped.
I feel so alone here and dont know what to do. I would love to leave but the money is ok and i dont know if i can find anything else.
I am worried about every thing.
I am sure these dont seem like bad problems compared to some on here but they are realy getting me down.
I have contacted a local free counselort service but they cant fit me in untill 10th feb.
I have been signed off work for 2 weeks or more but all my stuff is here in a place that i have to leave at the end of feb and i cant take it all with me.
If i take time away my problem will still be here when i return.
I am going to try and tell my boss today but not sure of his rection.
Any help or advice would be so helpfull at the moment.Just woke at 6am again worrying.