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Offline eva12

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introducing myself
« on: January 28, 2014, 10:10:45 AM »
Hello to all.
Im so glad i have found somewhere i can help and.hopefully be helped.
I hate to tell my story as my panic.and.anxiety stems alot from guilt and i don't want to be judged.i also worry that i don't deserve to be goes
With hindsight i think I've always suffered with feelings of panic since i was a little girl, although i didn't know it at the time, and i always felt panic when it cane to falling out with friend.
A few years ago i had a lovely circle of close friends and one best friend.over a period of time my friend husband came on to me several times.i handled the situation all wrong and didn't tell him firmly enough to stop it.instead i nervously would laugh it off.i hate to upset people and hate confrontation so i didn't tell came to a point where this man would try to kiss me and touch me and eventually went a bit I'm not calling it rape.i take full responsibility for not bring strong enough to tell him to back of or tell his wife, my friend.but i eventually did tell her and as you can imagine out didn't go down well.i lost alot of close friends who all read the situation as black and white that i had slept with my friengs husband
This is when my major panic and anxiety started.
After a few years my friend decided she still wanted to remain friends and we slowly built up a great friendship
She eventually divorced the guy..nothing to do with me..and remarried.
However, the new husband is someone i once had a brief fling with.everyone involved knew the situation but it was not discussed.
Cue me making another huge mistake to mess up our friendship..during a conversation i mentioned the worst thing i could have and have understandably hurt my friend again.she is currently not speaking to me.
I know this may all sound trivial and there are much worse things going on in the world but this is why i am feeling panicky,depressed,guilty, like a terrible person etc
I have been to the docs who have increased my dosage of citalopram and also prescribed beta blockers.
I cannot put the past behind me and it's running my life.i have children i need to be strong for but i cant shake myself out of this mess.
Any words of advice or wisdom will be massively appreciated.
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Offline Cuchculan

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Re: introducing myself
« Reply #1 on: January 28, 2014, 02:39:54 PM »
Welcome to the forum. Good to have you as a member. Here you are with like minded people. People who understand. As we all suffer from something or other. So feel free to ask any questions. Our members are always willing to help others out. Good chatroom too. 3 posts to enter the room.

Find the correct section of the forum that suits your condition and create a new topic on it. This is just a welcome section. Never really get the same amount of help in this section as you would on the other sections of the forums. So whatever one suits the questions you are asking. Get much better answers.
All users of the chatroom must be 18 years old or over. The room is off limits to anybody under the age of 18.
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