I hate having this stupid Anxiety....it is ruining my life!
Everything has been fine for days and today the symptoms are just attacking me soooo bad.
This morning my right leg started shaking out of nowhere....it felt as if my muscles were fatigued and shaky...like when you work out and you work your muscles to the point of fatigue. It was weird. And then I've been having where I seriously can't breathe or take a breath, waves of light nausea, dizziness/"off-balance" feeling, uncontrollable trembling, dull chest pains, my left side went numb and when the feeling came back the muscles in my left side were all sore, I don't remember things that happened or things that I said 5 minutes earlier periodically, having palpitations, and I've been letting out small trickles of tears sporadically throughout the day.
I'm sitting here about to burst into complete tears because my mom is coming to get the internet and I am not going to be able to go to my Anxiety forums if I need to and that terrifies me
I feel pathetic and stupid.
I hate myself for allowing it all to get this far.
It was regular anxiety at one time and it was like that for years....
But, now I am so super sensitive to stress, drama of any kind, and sadness.
Anything sets me off....any kind of ugliness, anger, or irritation sends me into this.
And on days like today...it just came out of nowhere and then because of the stress, ugliness, etc. it just got worse.
Once it starts, if I'm not given time to calm down and be 100% positive, calm and peaceful for a few hours it just snowballs.
I hate it.....I hate it so much
"I'm worthless and stupid...I'm no good to anyone."
That's how I feel.....maybe I just need to cry and let it all out....