Sorry to hear what you had experienced, but it appears that your meds are helping you and that is good . . . what I would suggest, and it worked for me but I am not a med professional, is that you don't avoid situations . . . . but, perhaps you reintroduce yourself to them in small doses . . . .so, pick something that you like to do . . . . for example, going to McDonald's . . . perhaps the first time, just walk to McDonald's . . . . then maybe go in and get a drink and walk out . . . .then next time, get a hamburger and leave with it and eat it at home . . .then next time, get something to eat and stay in the restaurant to eat it . . . . in other words, gradually build up . . . . if you have a friend, perhaps go first with a friend but be careful, you want to be able to enjoy these events on your own . . .
You have returned home a short while ago . . . . so, try not to anticipate a normal routine in the big picture because, when I did that, it felt so overwhelming . . . .I had to break it down into manageable chunks . . . .and the chunks were pretty small . . . . .with your therapist, you should be working through your triggers and how to manage them . . . it is a process, though, and I won't lie, sometimes there are bumps in the journey . . . .that's the story for most of us . . . .but, bit by bit, consciously engaging in doing the work and you will succeed . . . . and, of course, if we can support you in any way, let us know . . .take care, kc