So...I'm not complaining. At all. Because I think I'm going in a very positive direction with my life lately. Mindfulness has been beneficial. Lexapro I feel has given me more pep in the evening to be more engaged with my family, to cook more family dinners. Working on a "values based" approach to life via the ACT book has been helpful.
And yet....I feel there has been so much going on, this whole new way of thinking, etc, the drive to do more, that it's almost overwhelming. Distancing myself from my thoughts has been beneficial in decreasing the initial depressive an anxious symptoms, making me less worried about life, yet I'm exhausted from the effort. I don't know if that makes sense. Maybe a feeling of too much too soon. Again, I like the direction my life is going. But the very act of TELLING myself to approach something calmly or not focusing on my feelings, well it's different from how I have approached my life for 31 years, I feel like I'm going through some growing pains.
So, not neccessarily looking for some advice, just sharing thoughts and interested in other people's experiences. Definitely something I'll be sharing with my psychiatrist next week.