I finally was able to get over my fear of anxiety, but then I gained another fear after reading an essay titles "I Like Guys" (I am a girl). I was reading a personal essay for a class and it was about a guy who liked other guys. Before I continue I just want to let everyone know that I am not in any way against the LGBT group. I don't want to discuss what side I am on because I don't want to start a fight, I just need some help. Now, continuing on to my story I read this essay and the essay was about how this guy who felt so awkward because he liked other guys. He wanted to go to psychologist so that they can give him an electric shock or anything of that sort so he could become normal. No one really knew he was gay for sure, but everyone sensed he was different. He then had to go to camp for a school project, and while at camp he would have to stay with guys, which made him feel very nervous. While at camp he met this other guy who was gay and they had feelings for each other and were about to take their relationship to the next level, but they didn't because they were not willing to accept that they were gay. That was the article and after reading the article I felt very anxious and scared. I don't know why. I just kept having thoughts about "what if I am gay," even though I know I am straight. I have read tons of articles like this one, but they have never affected me. In part, because I have never read such an article when I had anxiety. I have always said that, though I am a heterosexual, I am not biased toward homosexuals, but for some strange reason I have become so fearful that I am not heterosexual, even though deep down inside I know my fear is irrational, I am not able to get it out of my head. I talked about this to one of my friends who said I may have connected to something in the article and that's when I realized that the only part of the article that pulled a chord with me was his desperation to be normal. I wanted to go the psychologists so badly when I started getting anxiety a while back because I wanted to be myself again. I could feel his pain of being so sad about something and being so fearful because I was so sad and fearful about anxiety. I never though anxiety could happen to me and for the longest time couldn't accept that it was a part of me because I did not want to believe I had that side of me because I always felt so different. Can someone please help me? Why am I all of a sudden so scared of being gay when I know that I am straight. Is it because I felt his desperation that scared me? Please help me!