Thank you everyone for your replies! I wish I had the support that some of you folks have. I really don't have anyone in my life that I can call "support". My husband has panic disorder and depression, so I feel like I can't pile any more crap on him. I did start seeing an therapist... but then he lost his job and there goes our insurance.
I often wondered if I would ever really "crack" since I never had before. The thing that drives me the most crazy is that I worry about important stuff and then I worry about dumb stuff. I realize some of the things I worry about are dumb and stupid (I can recognize that) but that doesn't stop me in any way from worrying about them.
For example, I feel on my knee and twisted my back last thursday at work. So, I went to the workman's comp dr. She has me off until she sees me tomorrow. A week and a half ago I put in a request off at work for Wednesday because I want to see a certain doctor before we lose our insurance. (Feb 8 is the last day). So, I am bound and determined to see this doctor on wednesday. I work in a physical environment, food service, and I truly don't feel like my body and my knee are ready to go back to work yet. I am going to take my husband along as support on that stance. So, out of all the crap I am worrying about at the moment, its whether she will make me go back to work after the follow up visit tomorrow. *I hope that came out the way I wanted it to*
I know it is silly for me to worry over this. Hubby says he sees no reason why, if I don't feel much better than I did on thurs. past, that she will put me back to work. Hubby says if all else fails, quit the job. They threw a fit and got nasty when I fell because it was an inconvenience to them. And I'm only getting 10 hours a week anyway. So I have spent the past two days worrying over something silly rather than the important things I need to be worrying about right now.