So, in looking through the different boards here at AZ I was reading about the symptoms of social anxiety, then it dawned on me, this is what is wrong with me! Or one of the things at least.
The dreading weeks in advance before a big event or party. The eating out. The wanting to hide in a corner. The fear of speaking--not public speaking, just speaking to someone at a party etc.
My field of study was Fine Arts in college, and in all my drawing classes every so often there would be a critique, everyone in the class picks a piece that they have drawn (or two) hangs it on wall, and the entire class gives a critique of it. I never was self-conscious of my work, and I suppose I didn't mind a bad critique either, it was the speaking in front of everyone that gave me the heebie-geebie's. I would have the racing heart etc. every time.
Well, I have something coming up that I REALLY want to do but I have trepidations about. I was a teenager in the 80's, was a big fan of all the 'hair bands'. 80's rock was everything to me back then. Last year I began looking up all the bands I adored, on Youtube. Came across one in particular that I fondly remember because one of their songs was the song that came out the year I met my husband. I was curious about what happened to the band since then and did some research. The lead singer still performs but on a smaller level. I liked his 0409 page, and get notifications on where he will be playing next. I was shocked and elated at the same time when his 0457 page posted an upcoming date in my hometown this spring. As luck would have it, the person affiliated with the bar he will be playing at is friends with two of my friends (small world) so tickets are no problem. I am just absolutely frightened to go because I don't want to make a total fool of myself, *it's the social anxiety speaking.
I am a huge fan of this person, and this will probably be my only chance to see and meet him, how do I go through with going to see him?
And also, I think I should get help for this--it's standing in the way of my otherwise wonderful life. Does anyone know how to get help for this?
Thank You So Much! :)