Hey Eric.. Wow 12 years that is so much. I sometimes feel like people around me are robots, my dad is great support but because of that i feel so alone. Do you have any tips for this derealization? I remeber when this feeling happened to me for the first time my friend and i went to the lake, she wanted to show me some pretty sights but suddenly everything became so weird, like i dream, I though it was because i've never seen that place before. Next day I was okay and it never happened again. I was 15 back then. But a month ago i had panic attack and ended up in hospital thinking i'm having a stroke... And then again for my 17th birthday and day after on Christmas Eve, that one was the worst. Since then i had derealization and it has gotten worse when i started my antidepressants. I'm a catholic so i believe in heaven where everybody will be free from this stupid disorders hehe. I was diagnosed with phobic anxiety disorder. I had some rough times in my life but this is THE worst thing that had ever happened to me. This may sound selfish but sometimes i think i would be better off with some nasty physical disease but other than that be a normal 17 year old girl than to have this symptoms. They are really overwhelming sometimes, especially before sleep, I guess that is because i'm left alone with my thoughts... and I can't bother my dad all the time, he needs his sleep too. I'm glad i found this forum, you people are really kind, and more important - you understand.