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Offline jayzi

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I don't feel real?
« on: January 21, 2014, 04:04:21 PM »
 I think I might have depersonalisation disorder, it feels like I'm living a dream. :( I keep pinching myself, I feel the pain but it just doesn't seem real. My mind feels disconnected from myself, I'm so scared of dying. I don't have any symptoms of anything, but I still think I'm dying. I just got over my brain tumour scare, but my anxiety still remains 2 weeka later. I'm scared I'm going to go blind even though I don't need glasses.
I feel worse in the morning, sometimes I can't even keep my head up; I feel like a zombie. This also links back to my brain tumour idea, as symptoms are more common in the morning. I keep on thinking that maybe someone poinsned me as a child or something? I just feel so weird. But after lunch I usually feel better and more “normal” (even though I don't know what normal feels like yet in about 10 years). I can't speak properly. When I talk, it just doesn't feel right. I can't hear my own voice, words just flow out my mouth and I have no control. I can't speak English properly either. I'm feel really self-conscious in the mornings, if I were to talk to someone in the morning I feel much more awkward and seeing myself from someone else's view. I keep feeling like at some moments I'm going to wake up, to my real self, in a different but perfect world lying in a bed and think “wow, that was a long dream...” Am I even writing this right now? Are people just made up and I'm dreaming my life? Is everyone else really living?! Help me I'm going insane?!
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Offline karachondria

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Re: I don't feel real?
« Reply #1 on: January 21, 2014, 04:40:24 PM »
Depersonalisation disorder is actually very treatable and I have met  people with your symptoms before. The reason you think you're dying is hypochondria. I have the same death feeling, since I was 9 years old :(
You aren't going insane, you need to distract yourself, and realize you're not alone and we can help or you can see therapists any sort of specialist help you need. You aren't dreaming good luck don't worry
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Re: I don't feel real?
« Reply #2 on: January 21, 2014, 05:27:43 PM »
yeah, common anxiety problem. I get it too. The only way to make it stop is to not let it have power over you. When the feelings come, just go back to whatever you were doing.. or ifnd something distracting to do. Worrying about it makes it worse. Damnable anxiety loves its positive feedback.
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