I was severely sunburnt and due to the dryness, in the pit of my arm, between my forearm and my bicep a little scab appeared. Clearly, the skin had cracked because how dry the sun burn made it - and at first, this is what I thought. But then, due to my lingering fear of skin cancer (I always feared this even without health anxiety because I am pale and it is the most common cancer), at around 4am, I started googling
and then convinced I had skin cancer, I went to the ER - haha.
From then, it escalated to the point where I am only sleeping half of my days on pills now. Afraid of everything. If any little dot on my skin appears, I am checking it throughout the day - the whole day. If I get an ache, related to the bone, I fear bone cancer. If I get diarrhoea, I fear bowel cancer. If I get an headache, I fear brain tumour.
My main concern now is my insomnia - and I haven't felt this bad about anything. When I feared about various cancers, I could at least get to sleep at night - but now, I fear that I won't sleep, which of course makes me not sleep. I honestly don't know how long I would be able to go without sleeping pills. Because for the past 6 days, I haven't been able to sleep myself without medication. I usually spend 2 days without sleep but every second day without sleep, 2 pills that night usually sends me to sleep for adequate hours. Then I won't sleep all that night and take another 2 pills the following night - it repeats.