Hello everyone! I am new to this forum, and have decided to join because my (usually mild) health anxiety is at an all time high. About a month ago I was scratching my the front of my neck ( I was wearing an itchy wool scarf) and found a small lump in the hollow of my throat. I was surprised because I had never noticed it before, but then again I had never felt around that area for anything. The lump is located right at the top of the sternum, it sort of sits on the top of the bone but is very slightly recessed into the notch. It is almost right in the middle. It does move around quite easily, is firm, completely painless, and about 1cm. It has an irregular feel to it. It is firm over all, but the edges are more firm, and it has a kind of dimple in the middle.
I went to the ER about it because my doctors office said they couldn't see me about it for a month (!!!). Plus I have been having unexplained pelvic pain that I had convinced myself was cancer and the cancer must have metastasized to my lymph system. The ER doc just tried to calm me down, and called my DRs office. He was able to get me an appointment with them for a few days later.
When I did finally go to the doc, she did a pelvic exam and a pap smear. She didn't say she found anything after the exam( and I was too afraid to ask), but she did schedule me for a pelvic ultrasound. My pap results were supposed to be back the next day, but it wasn't, nor was it back three days later. Supposedly it will be back today, but I am scared it was late because they found cancer and the lab needed more time to process and double check :/
My doc also checked the lump in my neck, seemed a little concerned, and said "yes, that is not a regular thing" and scheduled me an ultrasound on my neck as well. So I go for both ultrasounds tomorrow morning. I am not actually nervous about the tests, but super nervous about the results! I also hate the waiting game. I have no idea how long it will be before the tests are read and results sent back.
I am most nervous about the lump/possible lymph node. I know that supraclavicular nodes are something to be nervous about, and this is near that area. There isn't much information about nodes in the suprasternal notch online. And the info on sternum nodes are all for nodes that are under or over the sternum. This is at the top of the sternum, between the clavicles.
So yeah, I am freaking out. I actually started planning my death and how I am going to try to die with grace, and that I will write my own obituary.