Hi everyone. I am brand new here but have been reading for a long time. I have finally gotten to the point where I feel I needed to register. I was wondering if anyone could please help me. I have had sever anxiety and panic attacks for over 15 years. They come for 3 or 4 years really really bad the seem to disappear for awhile for some reason. They came back about 3 years ago but this time it is so bad I have thought I should check myself into a psych ward. I have always had severe cardiophobia. I have been tested with about 60 EKG's, 6 echo, a stress test and a holter monitor. All clean. I do have slightly elevated cholesterol that is 20 points to high but DR said I don't need meds. I am 30, female, no birth control and am about 20 lbs overweight. I am 5 foot so anything on my frame is overweight lol. I have done Attacking anxiety program, Panic away and lots others. I seemed to be getting some what of a handle on my cardiophobia and then boom, my anxiety switched gears. Right now my right calf has kept cramping for over a week and I had pain in my groin area. I went and saw a NP who said she though it was mucular as I had no redness, swelling etc. Now I am terrified it is a blood clot. I am so scared I think I am going to give myself a stroke. I have not stopped shaking and do not want to get out of my bed. Is this really a blood clot or can anxiety really change fears? I almost wish I could go back to the cardiophobia as stupid as that sounds. I have a pulse in both my feet and I think that is a good sign. Can anyone help me? I feel like if I go crying to my husband one more time he might lose it too. Thank you for reading!