having yet another rough day!

[scared748]

i havent been able to relax for te last few days my body is reacting like something bad is going to happen and i cant seem to control my mind is racing my stomach feels like its in a bunch of knots my chest hurts and i just cant relax...my anxiety is back full force and its overwhelming me  i just want to relax and i try to talk to my family but tey just tell me to stop thinking about it but i cant  im just kind of sittin here anticipating disaster and its scary...sorry i just need to talk it out

[MJF]

Sorry scared748.  Must be something in the water, because my week has been like this too. It IS overwhelming, and very tiring both mentally and physically.  Do you take medication at all? 

[scared748]

no i do not take medication anymore  i did take lexapro and zoloft for a while but i hated the way they made me feel i was sooo tired all the time and my mind seemed even more fixated on things so im trying it on my own and have been ok for awhile but them boom it was all back even my head feels funny like there is alot of pressuure on it or something i just wish it would go away and sorry to hear that you are having the same kind of week i wouldnt wish this on anyone but im glad you understand that makes me feel better

[MJF]

It always seems to be two steps forward, and one step back doesn't it?  But good for you for being able to push ahead on your own without medication.  I hope to be there one day too, but for now I take xanax when things get ugly in my head.

[scared748]

how is the xanax working for you?   i would like to try a different med but am a little afraid...if this keeps going im not sure i cant deal with this on my own

[MJF]

It really helps me.  I take a really low dose, but it works well.   I am very reluctant to go on something that I have to take every day, so I like the fact that I only need to take xanax when I really it.  It calms me down within 30 mins on most days, even when I am really anxious.  It probably lasts for 4 hours, but I have noticed that if I take it in the morning (ahead of the panic), I am usually pretty good for the whole day. 

[tigerpaw]

Ask your Dr to try a different med. There are so many out there it took me awhile to find one that worked.

Don't get discouraged.

[letMEcalmDOWN]

sorry scared. its the same for me too at the moment. seems like it not wanting to go away.
keep strong.

[scared748]

thank you guys so much...im going to take your advice and see what other meds are out there because i dont think sitting here waiting for it to go away is going to help but i do think this website helps too i wish i would have found this along time ago    so can i ask you guys how often do this happen does something provoke it do you have periods without anxiety?  sorry i keep asking so much its just a little scary to deal with this and the fact i cant get it to go away.

[letMEcalmDOWN]

lately i have had mine on and off for 3 weeks. but it does go away, sometime for months.

What triggers it? don't no, some time its nothing really, just feel anxious for no reason, other theres an obvious problem, life brings them up eh!

[scared748]

same with mine   i will be ok  for months  still anxious but nothing that affects my daily life and i guess i just have a hard time  believing nothing can provoke it but i know its true

[letMEcalmDOWN]

me 2. it just makes my anxiety sky rocket. when im worrying my head off my wife strugles to understand me. it frustrates her and me. its differcult to find people who do understand.

[scared748]

can i ask does your wife want to help you through it?   thats one thing im going through now is worrying that my boyfriend wont understand and wont want to be with me through this  i mean how do you tell someone that you have aanxiety?  i tried telling him before but he didnt believe me cause he didnt see it but now that its come back full force  i try to hide it but does it show i dont know   i would jusyt hate to lose him over this see here i go again he hasnt even given me a reason to think that and i worry that im gonna lose him ughhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

[letMEcalmDOWN]

ive tried to hide mine to but it makes it worse. my wife trys but how many more times will she put up with?

[scared748]

i guess if you love someone youll be there trough thick and thin and if not it wasnt meant to be   thats what i keep trying to tell myself

[letMEcalmDOWN]

very true. its a struggle at times like these im sure its the same with you. and little chats like these can help if only in a small way. before i found this site i was just very confused with it all. finding people on here was like a breath of fresh air. i wasnt alone and that does make it a little bit easier to deal with at times.
i dont know about you but sometimes it feels like life is moving on around me while i just sit here in my anxious little world and im screaming inside for help.

[letMEcalmDOWN]

have to go in a minute but it been real nice chatting with you scared. hope to bump into you again.

[scared748]

this little chat has helped me alot thank you for taking the time and im always willing to listen    take care

[letMEcalmDOWN]

if you ever want another chat i'll post on this thread to you. it has helped me too. thanx.

[letMEcalmDOWN]

hey scared how are you now? u still suffering abit?

[scared748]

im doing a little better...still having trouble relaxing but the last 2 days have been a little better for me...how are you doing?

[letMEcalmDOWN]

since our chat alittle better. had couple of moments yesterday with the chest thing but feel more myself thanks.

[scared748]

i have to say too chatting with you was more helpful than when i was seeing a therapist...it helps to just talk to someone  i mean you can read success stories about people that have overcome but when you actually talk to someone that is going through it it helps more than you know even if i cant completely relax i can somewhat from talking to someone...oh and i was talking to my sister the other day and i tried to explain it to her and she just said oh shut up you dont have anything wrong with you you just worry too much  just stop thinking about it...that was hard to hear because when i would talk to her before she understood or at least acted like she did and she would say oh i feel like that sometimeds too and we would make each other feel a little better and when my parents got divorced everyone saw it  i wouldnt go to sleep because i thought i was dying i even made my parents take me to the hospital...i guess ill just have to keep it from them because their comments like that dont help whatsoever....ok sorry for the venting :)

[letMEcalmDOWN]

no problem ive done my fare share of venting on here before lol. im afraid i've come across the same. told to just calm down( if only it was that easy!!)
I do understand people not understanding though, i mean we cant get our head around it so it will be differcult for others. it must have been hard for you to hear that from your sister though.
its great to find people on here that knows where im coming from. like just talking to you the other day for instance, it really made me come out of it for a while and that can only be a good thing.

[scared748]

very true  it must be hard for people not going throughit to understand...but your own family not believing you when you say something is wrong especially in mine anxiety runs in my family so weve all been exposed to it if we havent been through it we still saw it and for my own sister who used to help me through to say that i about died maybe shes in denial  i have 2 sisters and we all worry like crazy so maybe im just the only one who realized i have a problem(hmm i might have just come on to something)