Hi, I'm ChocolateInsomnia, and I'm new to this forum. And here is my story:
My Mom and Stepfather have been planning a trip to Japan to celebrate my graduation for years. But the closer it got the more I started dreading it. Even though I told both of them several times I wasn't looking forward to it at all, they didn't listen, and I didn't fight too hard hoping I would enjoy it in the end. I was wrong.
Only upon boarding the long flight from Detroit to Tokyo did I realize I'd made a terrible mistake. Panic took over, and I cried through the entire flight. It didn't get any better when we reached our final destination of Osaka. After spending the first day trying to have fun in a local mall(one of my favorite places to be), I found that not even that helped. The impenetrable language barrier didn't help either.
Ever since, I've been holing myself up in my hotel room. And every time I look out the window I'm reminded how much I don't want to be here and have a panic attack. Anything can set me off crying! Even my Mom is sobbing, thinking it's all her fault that this is happening to me because she wouldn't listen, even though I keep telling her it's my fault for not putting up a better argument.
We've all checked several times, and there's no flights until this Saturday. I just don't think I can make it! I'm too afraid to leave the hotel, and I wish I could find other Americans to talk to. My despair keeps me up at night, I have no appetite, and my anxiety meds don't do a thing to help me cope during the day!
I just want to go home, but it' going to be a long week ahead of me. I wish there was something I could do to distract myself and have fun, but it seems impossible. Does anyone have any suggestions?