I am obsessing over being half-asleep/half-awake and having odd, vague “dreams”.
These are not the lucid dreams of hynogogia but I hope they are another manifestations of it.
I’m stressing first because I noticed them suddenly and then became fixated on them. Trying to stop them or figure them out.
I can’t see a psychiatrist, which my neurologist suggested this past summer, until June. My GP is reluctant to put me on any meds but agreed to 60 .5 mg pills of lorazapam a month. 1 mg a day which makes no difference when I take it. Even before sleep.
I find myself trying to analyze these “dreams”. But I freak as often I can’t. They are halfway vague. Like I see a fence and hear myself say “yes, it hides half of it”. But it’s like there should be more to the dream. Like a part of it is occurring subconsciously and I can’t connect with it. I will spend 5 minutes trying to make the half-dream make sense. Once in a while I can sort of figure it out. Like the fence dream, earlier that day I was told to make sure a plant was half-underground and half-above. Maybe that related to the fence hallucination.
At times it’s bang, bang, bang. I wake up immediately (not that I am fully asleep as I’m not)and analyze or try to analyze what was going on. Then try to fall back asleep and another different “dream” arises.
Lucid dreams yes, rare 3-D images yes, but is this third thing also part of hynagogia?