I also have a MAJOR Pancreatic Cancer fear. It really started when I read "Tuesdays With Morrie" by Mitch Albom at the advice of my therapist back in summer 2012. In the book, Mitch talks about his uncle who died of PanCan in his 40's. Well, that, coupled with Patrick Swayze (who was like 57 or something), got me focused on Pancreatic Cancer, and then when you read how its almost 100% fatal, its become my #1 fear, especially as I'm in my 40's. I have a lot of upper abdominal/Right Upper Quadrant pain, not severe, but constant and nagging, and the only thing that helps it is a lot of Ibuprofen, and I've had a huge battery of tests and scans, including a CT back in July, an upper endoscopy, an ultrasound, and a colonoscopy, and nobody can tell me what's causing my pain. My fear of death and fear that the doctors have missed something, and the fact that they can't tell me the definite cause of my pain and fix it, has me always in a panic and constantly worried. I had also lost about 25 pounds in a month back in July and August after a kidney infection, but I have since gained almost 20 of it back. Common sense says its not PanCan, doctors tell me I shouldn't be worried about it at all, but I just wish I could take their advice....its not so easy. I just want this pain to go away so I could stop worrying about it.