I'm not sure how to explain what I've been going through recently. I suppose it's derealixation, but I'm not exactly sure. The symptoms I'm having are a feeling of unfamiliarity (if that's even a word)- for example, I've lived in the same house all of my 22 years of life. I'm comfortable in my house, but I feel particularly strange and weird when I'm driving home from work in the evenings. Nothing seems familiar to me. It's so weird and scary. I also get this feeling randomly when I'm thinking about it. I think "Oh this is soooo weird! Why am I here!" It's also triggered by certain lighting- lots of dimly lit places or yellow lights give me this sensation.
I also have this other weird thing going on: I don't really feel anything when I read inspirational stuff. BUT- here's the thing- I've never really been affected by that kind of thing. I guess since anxiety makes me question everything, it kind of dawned on me that these things don't affect me. But I worry that maybe they should! Shouldn't I feel something when I read bible verses and inspirational quotes? Maybe not all of them, but I don't really know anymore. I should make it clear that I don't have any problem feeling emotions. Heck, I cried like a baby at the end of the movie "Lone Survivor" last weekend and get misty eyes when I read or watch truly touching stories.
I just want to know if anyone else has experienced derealization in the way that I have, and if so, what did you do or what made it go away? How can I stop obsessing about it and questioning my surroundings all the time?