I wish the chat room was working for me. It says I have to post at least 3 meaningful posts first. I am terrified and soo sick of my depression and anxiety flaring up. I've been ok on meds for the most part for the last 10 years. I've only had 3 major debilitating events that I remember lasted weeks. Some days if I am feeling extra anxious I will take a Xanax.
In June I lost a pregnancy and I've been up and down emotionally since then. ;(
I'm trying to think about when I started feeling this way and it was when I woke up Friday morning this past weekend. I had a stupid dream Thursday night and felt depressed mostly all day Friday. I got added a new medicine Friday and filled the script Saturday morning but didn't take it till Saturday night. I'm currently on 60mg proxac but they added me on a 7.5 buspar two times a day.
This is different than the anxiety. The anxiety comes on quick and leaves after a bit and is an anxious, stomach upsetting, hard to breath feeling. What Im feeling is Depressed. I am crying and sad and have zero will or motivation to do anything. Been having bad headaches thoughts of fear and scared and loneliness. Seriously all I want to do is sleep. That feels the best because I'm not thinking or worrying. I'm thinking I should take off work again tomorrow and maybe take a Xanax more frequently over the next few days. ;/
I absolutely hate feeling this way. It's not the real me. I have to worry about my boyfriend sad to see me this way and I fear I will loose my job I because I cannot work like this. I'm trying hard to distract myself but it comes and goes and I'm scared to do anything because I hate the way it makes me feel when it comes on.
;(. I'm so sad for myself and everyone else who has this. ;(. Feeling sad and hopeless and not sure how to make it go away so I can live my life happily and without interruption.