I'm back. UGH! Last year for the first time in my life I battled with anxiety, and I won... or so I thought. My anxiety is back and although not as debilitating as it previously was I am terrified. This time I feel my concerns are legit. A week ago I found a lump underneath and to the side of my nipple. A firm, not very mobile round lump. Of course my mind goes to cancer. (My cousin passed away of bone cancer at the age of 19 and my therapist believes this is where my fears stem from) Anyway, I saw my GP who briefly felt it and said it felt round and not hard and said she didn't think it was anything but said that every lump needs to be investigated. She referred me to a breast health clinic and my appointment is on Thursday. I have been worried SICK ever since, and have been googling like nobody's business and of course, I now am convinced I have a malignant tumor. I am only 30 and have a 4 year old son and 2 year old daughter. I breastfed them both for a total of 3.5 years straight and stopped about 10 months ago. I am Hispanic and the only family history of BC is my mom's aunt who got it when she was almost 50. Anyway I know these are all positives and that the odds are in my favor. My rational mind tells me it is most likely something else, but my anxiety is obsessed with the thought that I feel the lump is quite firm, and not very moveable and therefor it has to be cancer. I have envisioned the worst case scenario, cancer, dying, leaving my children. I am going crazy and these aweful dooming thoughts are taking over. Can anyone who can relate and have a positive outcome please provide some reassurance? Anyone???
Thank you for reading <3