Do you think seen as the CT scan was clear 2 years ago I probably don't have a brain tumour? Or do you think it could have got bigger since then or they missed something?
Firstly, I don't think the doctors missed anything - it is possible but extremely unlikely. There is a lot of time for the tumour to grow in two years but this is an irrational thought. If we look at this objectively and rationally, we would have to accept the extremely unlikely chances that you had grown a tumour right after having a CT scan. Again, this is possible but extremely unlikely. Also, the pressure behind your eyes is fine. Meaning IF you had a tumour, it is not big enough to cause pressure - but even the smallest tumour can increase the pressure. You shouldn't dwell on the small possibilities otherwise you will never stop worrying.
Yeah both the doctor and the opticion said that behind my eyes seem fine, but I just think to myself well that doesn't mean anything, that isn't giving me an MRI scan!
You cannot have every single possible test every time you think you have something seriously wrong with you. This will waste a lot of money and you have to remember that you don't have to have every possible test in order for the doctors to detect something (that is what they are trained to do remember). If you had a brain tumour, the doctors would be able to pick this up without having to do every single test.
I'm having a bad week this week, feeling very sick, and the dizziness is back so bad I've had to sit down a couple of times and the headache is waking me up in the night its been that bad I just feel like I am in a constant state of panicking, the worst I have felt in a long time.
You have just told me that you are constantly in a panicked state so no wonder you feel this bad. If you are constantly worrying about it, you will inevitably have symptoms (and severe ones). I know it is hard and you feel you only have perhaps months to live - but you can get through this. I am putting my bets on that it is anxiety that is causing these symptoms. You need to try and calm yourself down. I promise it will get better if you can keep calm. You need to try and think more rationally.
And of course I have been googling brain tumours, and none of my symptoms seem to match anything BUT brain tumour.
Incorrect. Believe me, every symptom you have, I have also had. And a lot of others have also had these same symptoms as you. And it was all anxiety related. I get headaches a lot of the time. Even times when I don't feel anxious, my headaches will come for no apparent reason. And googling symptoms has no positive outcome. Literally, there is nothing at all to gain from googling your symptoms. Refrain from googling any symptoms. All your symptoms CAN be put down to anxiety - and they are most likely caused by your anxiety - not a brain tumour.
I can't think of anything to do to take my mind of it and when I try I get dizzy or the headache or feel sick so it constantly reminds me
everyone is getting really sick of me, I'm just repeating myself but I aren't getting any answers apart from the ones I am giving myself which is that it is a brain tumour
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I can think of things you can do: take up a new hobby; carry on with an existing one; think of steps you can take to overcome your health anxiety (NOT GOOGLING IS ONE STEP); do something creative! Got a sharpie lying around? Look up zentangle (they are easy and are excellent for stress relief). Your last statement demonstrates your anxiety - and NOT a brain tumour. You are worrying. Therefore you are having anxiety symptoms.
Like I said, you can overcome this but you have to try (I know it is hard but you can do it).