Hello all. This one might be a little hard for me to explain, but I'll do my best.
As someone with general anxiety, I tend to get lost in my own thoughts and obsess over situations that I have no control over. One particularly daunting issue arises when someone thinks something about me that is incorrect. For example:
I know a lot about computers. It isn't exactly something that I feel the need to broadcast to the world, but it's something that I'm proud of. Let's say I'm at a party one night with some friends, and the topic of computers comes up. Maybe someone makes an off-hand comment like, "well none of us know about them anyway," but for some reason I don't speak up to say that I do. I start to think, "I want to let them know that I AM good with computers," though by the time I can think of anything to say, the topic has moved on. (This didn't happen to me. I'm just using it as a general example). So in other words, I'm left in a situation where I can no longer naturally correct them, and I have to live with the fact that they have the wrong idea about me.
For days, weeks, months, I will be EXTREMELY bothered by this, and I won't be able to stop thinking about it. Any time I go to use a computer it will remind me of that conversation and how there are a few guys out there who don't think I'm computer-literate. This might lead to me avoiding computers as much as I can, just so I can stop being bothered by the thoughts. I know how ridiculous this sounds, but sadly this is no exaggeration. While this particular situation is made up, it happens in very similar situations. It can be as significant as people thinking I don't have a girlfriend or as petty as people thinking I don't like peas. I simply cannot stop obsessing over it, and the ONLY way to stop the endless cycle is to somehow let the people know they are wrong.
I understand that people don't think about me nearly as much as I imagine, and I really just need to let this stuff go, but this seems to be hardwired into my brain. I've been going to therapists for years, and while it has definitely helped, I think I need to make friends with people who feel the same way to really start healing.
I don't want to depend on correcting people in these situations to make myself feel better again. I want to just be able to let it go and move on, no matter what. I envy those who have the whole, "meh, let them think what they want to think" attitude, but I have absolutely no idea how they can pull that off.
So...anyone else out there like this? Is anyone else's life put on hold when someone has the wrong idea of you in any way?