I've found that it's a lot easier to live with this mess & slowly climb out of that pit you're in by first finding meaning for all those things that are going through your mind. I don't mean a root or a cause, but rather a purpose, having lived with this constant fear, social anxiety, insomnia, panic attacks & a lot of other stuff I'm slowly starting to realize how much good it has done to me, it has made me a more empathetic, thoughtful, kind, loving & understanding person & it gives me motivation to overcome all of it, so I can express my true being & start helping others whose life has fallen in turmoil. The more I walk around & observe others, I realize how much they take for granted the skills that for some of us are a dream, something to envy & blame ourselves for not being capable to do. The thing is, if any of that skill was suddenly taken away from them, they'd panic & won't know what to do, because they've never been in such a situation, whereas us, who struggle throughout our lives just to reach what they are already at, can never fall back down, because we fought & suffered to get where we are. So with all this knowledge & strength, and it is strength, not weakness, we should strive to do whatever is necessary to overcome our obstacles & seek out to help those who are in a situation we left behind, knowing exactly what to do to help them get over it.
I've learned to love & embrace all of my fears, irregular heartbeats, anxieties, stresses & treat them more as friends, seeing that comfort is the enemy that weakens us & makes us fail.
And don't be discouraged to ask for help or say anything you normally can't here, that's why we're all here:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O0YxeTjFn70