Hi . . . glad you came by and thank you for sharing your experiences . . . .from personal experiences, you are experiencing many symptoms that are common to people with anxiety . . . I suspect, but I am not a med professional, that your car accident triggered the panic / anxiety . . . a question for you: do you know what triggered your original panic attack in 2008? Sometimes, and again from personal experience, when the original trigger is not resolved, it sits in the background waiting for another event to come along and it gets triggered again . . . a car accident would trigger health anxieties, etc. and the feeling of imminent danger, etc. It appears that your fight or flight response is stuck in fight and you have yet to be able to tone down the flow of adrenaline into your system . . . all of this is fine to say, but the issue is how to manage it . . .
You are seeing a counselor who, I am assuming from what you wrote, is not specially trained in dealing with a person with anxiety. Who prescribed your klonpin? You are planning to return to your doctor for anti-depressants? Perhaps there is some way that you could be referred to a trained professional in mental health who has a sliding fee scale because you need to deal not only with the symptoms but also with your triggers. . .. can you contact a mental health unit in your city for referral or a mental health advocacy group to join a support group in your community?
It is one thing to help yourself which is how the recovery process must work; but for many of us we need a bridge between high continuous anxiety and a breathing space when we can start to recover . . . .it is great that you have a loving family, but it is difficult at times for folks who have never experienced anxiety in a prolonged episode to understand that managing anxiety is not simply "thinking of something else" . . . and, quite frankly, they probably feel frustrated that they cannot do something to help so they withdraw rather than engage . . . I feel that you need professional guidance so you can get an area of manageability so you can start your recovery process . . .
And, by the way, anxiety does create the sensation of losing it because we feel out of control . . . for me, I have had to learn that I cannot control anxiety, but I can manage it . . . it is a process rather than an event, but it does help if you have professional guidance so you are not going through it alone . . . .I wish I had a magic solution, but the best I can offer you is a community of members who understand what you are experiencing and hope that you will return . . .we will support you as best we can . . . and there is always, always, always light even at the end of a hellish tunnel . . . please keep in touch . . .take care, kc