I have been looking all over the internet to share a little of what I'm going though and hopefully someone can help me alleviate some concerns. First off, I am a 28 year old EMT Firefighter who got out of the Air Force in 2011. While I was in we used to smoke and drink a lot, especially over seas. Since I got out I cut it down a lot but it's not gone completely. I enjoy learning as much medical information as I possibly can, which ended up being my downfall.
Here is the story.
About 6 months ago I noticed that the lymph node in my neck had become hard, swollen, and remained that way. I had other symptoms which I immediately related to this; occasional fatigue, sweating at night (Other people described theirs as drenching, mine was nowhere near that bad). I self diagnosed myself with Lymphoma and was terrified, too scared to go see my doctor about it.
I finally had the courage to go talk to her two weeks ago and she was concerned. She decided to run a blood panel and said that if there was anything irregular she would call me, but otherwise she would send me the results in the mail. Then two days later, I had a missed call from her which made my heart stop.
Once I called her back she said that the levels of white blood cells and platelets were normal, being high would be a sign of NHL or HL, but I know its not definitive. With the other tests she ran she told me that she wasn't concerned and that she had my back. The news made me feel much better for a few days until I felt what felt like a second node in my hip area that had become swollen. And now I am freaking out about that.
I feel that if I continue to feed her symptoms its only going to feed my hypochondria and anxiety. It's annoying to feel like everything is fine just to have another sign pop up and stop me in my tracks.