Billy, I am always sorry to hear of people dealing with the things I deal with, but at the same time there is a sense of relief as well. Just knowing that the thoughts, feelings, and sensations I have are not unique to me has a very calming effect. I always figure if someone else thinks this way too then there is nothing weird or special about me, and no, I cannot predict the future: )
Tinam, you're right. Learning does take lots of effort. I think I hold myself back in a lot of ways and I'm not quite sure why I keep up that kind of self-sabotaging behaviour.....worth investigating I suppose!