Ok. I need a more positive emoticon to balance out the angry one up there...
There. Very kooky, indeed!
So, I'm getting over a respiratory infection, and today was a very tough day for me and my anxiety/depression. I am at home, for the fourth day in a row... I left the house to take out the trash.
Stir-crazy, to say the least.
In my trying to heal and progress and put a stop to this anxiety wonkiness, I am trying to distance myself from my best friend/wannabe boyfriend/stress trigger. I am very sad over this; I basically broke up with him (even tho we were not dating it was still a break-up). He is the person I most want to run to when I feel low, and right now I am trying not to do that. It is hard, and I spent today crying about that and missing him.
But the dang flu and its symptoms have exacerbated things, for sure. The difficulty breathing, the coughing, the aching head, the dizziness here and there--they are all perfectly normal flu symptoms, and just enough to make a crazy person wanna snap. I don't need help being crazy! Double
So, I have to remind myself that these are just my illness, not my body breaking down...and it's ok to be sad over my buddy, and I'll be ok.