Self checking is my worst HA bad habit. Esp breasts. I get a high level of panic before I have to do it and think I feel all kinds of things. And then I want to keep rechecking just to make sure I didn't miss somethinf or to try to feel again what I felt before to determine if I need to go to the dr. It is horrible. I check first then have my husband check then check my "questionable" spots again. I can tell you my dr said that breasts are lumpy period. Clearly there is stuff in there so you are going to feel it. And checking them once a month is all you need to do. I am sure you heard this before, and I am typing this for myself as well, cancer doesn't just magically grow overnight. Tanning a few months back isn't going to give you melanoma right now. You won't feel a spot in your breast daily. If a Dr checked you out & said hemmroids, then that is what it is. It won't magically be cancer, it is just annoying. This is all just a mental thing you have to overcome. Distraction and putting yourself in situations where you can't self check helps. Also decreasing the time you self check, over time, helps (today I will check moles 3x, tomorrow only when I change clothes, a few days later, once a day, a week later, every other day, etc.). Hope this helps.