I am 20 years old, living alone in a big city. I grew up a very happy kid, very healthy and active, but for the past 3 or 4 years I have had troubles concerning what I believe to be an anxiety disorder of some sort. Some of my symptoms include paranoia, often sensing someone is watching me, or in the room, when they clearly are not. I feel scared of so many things, which make no sense to me. I worry about my mental health all day, every day feeling as if I may blow a fuse and grow crazy. I have horrible thoughts often including cutting wrist, which makes no sense because I am for the most part a very optimistic person, with no intent in hurting myself, or anyone else for that matter. I should note, my mother has bad psychosis, and my older sister has severe depression, which I suppose could very easily link to me getting something genetically. I just want to live my life without worrying about everything, and not being paranoid or thinking about my mental health each and every day. I love my girlfriend very much, and have good friends around me, but I feel if I donít figure out whats going on with me then I eventually will lose everything. I have never been diagnosed or really seriously talked with anyone about this, but I just donít want to live the rest of my life like this. If anyone has any input at all I would really appreciate it! Thanks for reading!