I am new to HA.
I went to ER for panic attack in June and had first xray, ct. a lung nodule was found and after that i kind of went nuts, think i have lung cancer which could be. i am a 39 yo mom of 3 kids, ages 5, 11 and 14. our lives have changed since then so much for the worse. and i don't know what to do. the dr ordered pet/ct in august cause i lost weight (i was scared and did not know what this would mean) and now i feel my life is over from all of the radiation. had my chest ct follow up in november and it also was not low dose. im scaring everyone and feel sick every day.
i had no idea if it was contrast, what, no experience at all and was so scared. dr did not discuss it with me, no one did along the way and up
to the exam.
anyone have ideas, think maybe im not dying now but maybe down the road. i never had a ct before this and now ive had tons of radiation,
about the same as atomic bomb victims and no one believes im ill because of it. anyone had 20+ msv? i am so scared.
i love my family and every day am so sad that this might be it, or that i won't be around as long as i naturally would have due to this awful mistake. i have a hard time looking ***** my kiddos knowing i jeopardized my health and made the hugest mistake of my life for no good reason and might leave them because of it, and am definitely not as good of a parent because of it. i used to be so carefree and happy, and now i feel im dying every day and am sad, sick feeling.
please help and suggestions. am breaking down and picking up my zoloft today.